Hi what triggers my need to cross dress so I thought I would see what I could come up with as I really haven’t thought of it that way. I have done some thinking about it and please remember this is only my view and how it is for me, I cannot answer for anyone else.
I don’t know if I
really have a trigger as such as I get out on a pretty regular basis. What I
can tell you is my time as Annie is a great stress reliever. It is how I deal
with my stress in my life, my escape from the day to day things that build up
in people. It allows me to step outside of my normal life and be someone else
for a while. So I guess that would be my trigger as if I go long periods
without being Annie. I can feel the stress build. I tend to have more trouble
falling asleep as when I go to bed and try to relax my mind I suddenly find
myself thinking about makeup, dresses and of course beautiful nails. So I guess
in a way not being Annie adds a little to my stress level.
For me the whole
part of being Annie is just so relaxing to me from the time getting ready,
doing my routine and picking out which outfit to wear. It is just something I
really enjoy like you might enjoy one of your hobbies.
I have also made
some wonderful friends as Annie and I love spending time and talking with them.
I think the fact that they are separate from my male side also helps as we
don’t find ourselves talking about work or anything else other than the Annie side.
When I get together with friends from work no matter how hard we try we always
end up talking about work. As Annie we talk about clothes, makeup, shoes and
anything else going on in the world but work does not come up and I think that
is one of the hardest things for people to do is get away from work for a while.
As I said many
times my dressing is a way for me to relax, it is not sexual for me. I do not
feel I am a woman trapped in a man’s body and do not want to change my sex. I
like my male side just as much and would never let it go. The last thing and
what most people have the hardest time with is the fact I am not attracted to
men. I can’t really give a good explanation other than I am not. I guess the
best I could say is just because one watches cricket does not mean they want to
play cricket, just because you like to fish does not mean you are going to quit
your job and leave your family to go fishing all the time, just because you
might like ice cream does not mean you want it for every meal every day for the
rest of your life. You can like something without having it consume your life.
I will close with a couple questions for you to think about. First for the
woman out there, when you get dressed in the morning do you pick out your
clothes, do your hair and makeup with the thought that this is for someone else
and you get no pleasure out of it? Now for the men, when you go to the gym and
work out is it for someone else and you get no enjoyment out of it? We all do
things we enjoy for no other reason than the enjoyment of I, and that is what
my cross dressing is for me.
People try to read
too much into things sometime. Now again this is me and how. If everyone was
the same life would be very boring.
Many People Instagram
are still confused about Cross dressing …
Well I guess that
is enough for today.
Have a great week
end and thanks for reading my blog.
Celebrating the colours of our beautiful relationship,
I wish you and your family
all the bright hues of life.
Have a colourful holi!